Why this business means more to me then you would ever imagine....

I started this business during one of the darkest times in my life. My business partner stole months worth of back pay and I was dating a man living multiple lives and cheating with dozens of people. I stopped drinking for the first time in 14 years, which is wonderful but it led to me feeling the full effect of my undiagnosed mental health issues, suicide ideation, and childhood traumas for the first time. During the first six months movies, friends, AA attendees, everyone echoed "family's all you need". I'd heard the saying before, maybe it was to ignore but my newly sober mind noticed it, and played it on repeat in my head.

All I had left was an Uncle and a Grandpa that I seldom spoke to. Most of the friends I considered my family were fellow alcoholics that didn't care about me when the party ended. I found out I couldn't have my own kids, considering I started planning my family at 14, the year I was orphaned, I had a hard time coming to terms with this and "family is all you need" screamed louder and louder in my head as every day passed.

I knew if I didn't find a way to make my life fulfilling, I would have no reason to stay sober, or alive. So I stopped whining about what I'd never have and focused on what I could have. I initiated a closer relationship with my beloved Grandpa and in return I've received a family's worth of support from a single, amazing human being. Before sobriety, my dream was to become a philanthropist and it became clear this was my life purpose. I started this business to use the proceeds to start other businesses, each one will infinitely fund a specific charitable endeavor. I was able to start helping immediately by donating 3% of profits from this business to various charities!

I dream of creating a self-sustainable property with affordable housing and employment opportunities for my fellow people with Moderate to Severe Autism AND/OR Sensory Processing Disorder. As horrible as it is to be orphaned, no hardship has caused as many struggles as finding housing and employment that doesn't negatively impact my physical and mental health.

That's why I ended up homeless while running this business. For years and despite many moves, I had issues with rentals becoming noisy after I moved in, impacting my ability to sleep, decompress or work in a healthy environment in my own home. On top of that, I worked the kind of hours that could burn anyone out, in environments that were far from ideal for a person with Autism or SPD. I got to the point where I knew I had to quit one of my jobs; the one that paid my rent or the business that could make me a philanthropist one day.

The choice was clear and I spent the majority of the next 18 months living in my small truck, working in my storage unit late at night half the week, and the other half in a hotel. Many years of poor sleep, the effects of living in public with a Processing disorder, and long-term autism burnout led to Psychosis. I still can't comprehend how I or my business survived. Fortunately, I disassociated and can't remember most of it, but I came out the other side with a stronger understanding of severe mental health issues and this strengthened my drive to help those afflicted someday.

April 2020, my beloved Grandfather gave me his Stimulus check and I was able to bounce back from homelessness and work from home. My neighbors may not be the most Autism-friendly neighbors but my health has improved so much in the six years I've worked on it and I'm blessed for increased energy and clarity to focus on my goals. I'm grateful for every hardship that gave me insight and understanding of others' struggles. I look forward to serving this planet, the animals and the humans more and more every year!

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